Good Morning Friends. Well, FB came and locked me out of my account because of a post I did and have threatened to shut me down entirely ‘if I continue to break their posting rules’. Now, before I get into what happened, I want to tell you something I have realized. I believe that Jesus has gently rebuked me. I have been too angry, too proud and too.. well, full of myself lately. FB can’t close me down. As long as God wants me to speak, I will speak. There is, literally, no human or corporation that can stop God’s will. So, if I was silenced, it is because God allowed it to happen. I have been in prayer and have been reading the Bible for guidance in this matter. And I have to tell you, the break was nice. I rested and prayed and it was good. At first, of course, I was so angry because what FB did and what they ARE doing is evil, wrong and unjust. But that is the world today. Look at the Christians being murdered and imprisoned around the world. In comparison, I suffered nothing at all. Just a blow to my freedom and pride. Did it stink that other people could control me? yes. But I KNOW that God is in charge of the world. Nothing happens without his permission. Angels literally guard us everyday from satan. If they part their way and allow evil to touch us, then it was with God’s permission. We learned that with the story of Job.
That doesn’t mean that God approves of FB and Bing and Microsoft or other evil progressives. It simply means that he was answering my prayers.
Lately, I have been feeling the prodding of the Holy Spirit. I have been asking myself if I am on the right track. I felt something amiss. I knew that I was speaking the Truth, but I was wondering, “Am I showing enough of Christ’s love and forgiveness & hope to people? Is my voice too angry? Am I too condemning?” See, I KNOW my heart is full of love when I speak the truth. But I now realize that I have been holding back. My pride refused to give in to the constant barrage from so-called atheists and those who hate Jesus. Also, to the ‘religious’ people who call themselves Christian. BECAUSE they falsely accuse me of hate when my purpose was to warn out of love, I became even more loath to speak my true purpose- which is to love. I refused to placate them or to defend my words out of pride. Why give them that satisfaction? I thought. This doesn’t make their attacks right or them right. It just made me wrong right alongside of them.
But the night before, I prayed fervently to God to tell me if I am doing wrong. To tell me if it was true that I was too harsh or too angry and not loving enough. I prayed and asked him to smash me rather than lead anyone down the wrong path. He knows my heart. He knows how very much I adore him. He knows I want only to serve him. And the next day, I was cut off from you for 24 hours. The Lord had answered my prayer. FB thinks they punished me. But like the Assyrian king that God used to destroy Israel, God can use an evil king to rebuke his people. But then, he turned and destroyed the Assyrians too. The rebuke was gentle, Friends. And I am so happy. Why? Because GOD ANSWERS OUR PRAYERS. He heard my prayer and he showed me the way. Because I love him, I will listen.
Today, having a day to ponder, reflect, pray and study the Bible, I realized that good ol’ satan had gotten a hold of my pride and had been putting me on a path away from God’s will. Yes, I was speaking the truth. Yes, I did it out of an obedient and loving heart. But these people were beginning to truly anger me. Their insults, lies, persecution, hypocrisy and slander had made me weak and tired. And that, my Friends, is exactly what satan wanted from the whole thing. That is why he sent them.
With anger comes pride. With pride comes error. And this error can lead people away from Christ- which is 100% opposite of what I wish to do.
So, today I face you a more humble woman. Shall we begin the day? I send very much love out to all of you. And I would like you all to reflect on this gentle, loving rebuke from God. We must not become so angry or so frustrated with the evil around us that we become evil ourselves. It is a narrow road we walk, Jesus said. And ONLY A FEW will enter the Kingdom of God. Nothing- and I mean nothing- is worth losing our soul.